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World Cup

It’s not for me to ignore what will be shaping our thoughts in the fore coming few days, and its a question of whether we should ignore what influences us. I think we should always beware of what influences us, it’s this where we can think ‘where we are now’. I mean you can always think where we want to be, and this gives us motivation to achieve, but if there are challenges to achieve this, we have to look at; ‘do we have the want to go from where we are at right now to do what ever we want to be’.

But then, there is a question of environment, and what influences us is our environment, and if this is the case then really is all the above just a bit of human mechanism to control our environment. Football somehow just lives up to this, it is a constant influencer on peoples’ lives, and when a player steps into the right environment there is just something about being in contact, somehow we keep pace as long as we can remain in contact. The rest is just about getting to that position where we can ‘keep contact’, and personally I just think there is just so much in knowing where we stand as of now, and from there we just get so much more out of our surrounding influences.

Reality Versus Fantasy

What is it about our minds, that just has to have this notion of a fantasy reality. It seems impossible for us to exist in this state of fantasy forever, and that’s just how we are wired. But why are we wired this way, and why is there such a stark difference between reality and fantasy. Well, there is no way of getting to the bottom of this, but just trying however throws up a few other ideas. It’s like this is the journey we are on, and it’s about being able to maintain this fantasy relationship with our reality. Then it seems to go further than this, and we start to see it is ‘people who maintain this sense of reality’ that we consider as successfull, and that’s just something that seems to be systematic, all around the globe.

So what is it that means, we get to stay in this fantasy state for longer;
Well I’d have 3 main areas which are; Mental Attitude, Knowledge, and the physical involvement with the world. Then just look at how these things apply to various different fantasies, i.e within sport, with career aspirations, with money and maybe within virtual reality even.

Take sport for example; you have the mental attitude thing, with being focused, being consistent, and host load of other things, that would need really wording out. You then have Knowledge, you may find that you get considerable benifits from specific ways of training, and or its maybe about researching your opponents. Then you have the physical side of things, like diet, facilities etc which make fundamental differences.

All, in all I’ve probably not got any closer to understanding the idea of ‘Reality versus Fantasy’, but I think we start to make it a less stark relationship, with persaverance.

Glow Ball

This is a basic little video with some special effects, my camera is now broken so this is using my webcam, so its not great quality, not that my camera was good quality anyways. I did this using some freebie programmes on the internet, namely blender in which you can do all your 3d modelling, and voodoo for the camera tracking. (if you want to know how just type in ‘voodoo camera tracking tutuorials’ in Youtube)

I’m dreading trying to improve on this though, as I think the direct from doing this is going into ‘light saber’ star wars stylie fights, and that might be a little too advanced. Still it would be pretty cool, if I could do ‘Star Wars’ fights for like ermm nothing, when it kind of costs ‘George Lucas’ just a little bit more.

Ahh, is it sensible to be a little silly now and, then? Not to get, wrapped up in everything thats around. Or what is it that makes us think, just how to be happy? I think, some times you have to look for these things, you have to try and find a source of fun, and maybe just let go so that you see all these beautifull things in life.

I think you some times need to do this, to remind yourself what life is about. Soo what ever your focus is, you have to remind yourself what this is for, and I think if we are really honest with ourselves then it’s about what makes us happy. Well, when I say honest I mean is it about realising that it maybe about rehearsing what keeps us happy all the time.

Creation

Creation, it seems we are obcessed with creating things, just escaping the idea that we are the some of our surroundings. It also seems that we are just constrained as humans to our own little channels to be this creator we all wish to become. But what is this constraint, we all seem to be just happy within our own creative spheres, but we all want to know what is outside of this. I mean we all want to know how the world works, but are we happy not knowing what this is, and it seems we are happy as long as we are creating. But it just seems we are soo much more in our own spheres when we are creating, and it seems like we’d be soo much more if this same concept wasn’t this narrow concept that we can’t escape because we are happy.

It’s kind of a point now where we start to ask that questionable comment, of who we are? I mean you take this idea of ‘finding your natural point’ and from here there is work to be done, and its kind of a random one. That is I think this is something you get, when you find ideas that stimulate, where work can get done within yourself, and where work needs to be done. It’s this work within ourselves that’s just close to the idea of who we are.

For me it’s all about realising that I can do what I’ve always done, and for me well that’s quite exciting. I just hope there is no realm of disillusionment in the coming week.

I’m still working on my 3d models but the one I’ve been working on I’ve been struggling on so far, just to get it right. But, I still want to keep my website fresh, so no point delaying an update.

I suppose at the moment in my head its all about finding your natural point, and all the things you can achieve from this. Particulary the directions you can go in from here. To re-iterate I’ve been in situations before, were I’ve felt I really need to speak, more about whats on my mind; I think this is the premises of good communication. But I think that extends a bit further than just the verbal wordy element, that is the natural point. I think that it is just this natural point that means that you can expand on this premise of good communication.

Some people say ‘be yourself’ is the best advise you can give someone, but I think there are sometimes tools we need to get there.

This is my first attempt at 3D model animation in Blender, still some improvments I want to make on this, and its definetly not upto the standard you see on Grand-Designs TV show. (A whole lot more pictures on my blog these days, but I’ll try and put more text in, at some point in the future.)

New Blender pics

I am still just getting used to basics of Blender, but making progress. I just think it’s a bit of a cool skill to learn, and I can’t understand why more people don’t do this.

Left is a quick little Wardrobe I designed

Below is just a couple of little houses (not exactly grand designs though)

Novice 3d-modelling

First attempt at 3d modelling using Blender, hmmmmmm